Transitions in life are inevitable. We transition from grade to grade in school as young children, from child to adult, from student to employee, from single to married, from one job to the next job, the list goes on and on. As I go through them, I often find myself searching for an instruction guide, a paved path through the wilderness. As a more Type A person, this is my comfort zone; knowing what is coming and how to get through each hurdle on the way. Recently, I have found myself in a season of many transitions; Student to Staff, Beach to Bush DTS to Music, Art, and Dance DTS, living in America to living in Australia, the list goes on and on. Each morning I wake, trying to make this season my home, I wake to a different schedule, a different set of circumstances. I find myself leaning on God more and more as less and less of the path in front of me is clear. My comfort zone is gone, God must show up.
When I first considered coming on my Discipleship Training School, (DTS), I heard a sermon about Jonathan and his armor bearer. In 1 Samuel 14, Jonathan and the Israelites are fighting the philistines. Jonathan gets a crazy idea that they should cross a rocky gorge to attack the Philistines. In verse 6, Jonathan voices his idea to his armor bearer as follows;
"Come, let's go over to the outpost of those uncircumcised men. Perhaps the LORD will act in our behalf. Nothing can hinder the LORD from saving, whether by many or by few."
“Perhaps the Lord will act on our behalf”. What a powerful statement. Though I am not in a raging physical battle, I am in a constant battle against my comfort zone. Not only now am I in this position, but my full DTS was in that position. Most days look like me saying to God, “this is what I have, it is not enough, but God, You, are enough. Will you show up on my behalf today?” and every time He does in incredible and amazing ways. This verse, consistently shows up in my days reminding me Who is in charge and why I am here.
In my current season staffing here at YWAM Brisbane, I am also challenged daily by the thought “what if Jesus chose His comfort zone?" What if Jesus didn’t die on the cross?” Jesus being fully human, knew the reality of what was about to happen to him. In the book of Luke, it is documented that Jesus was crying blood while interceding for himself to not have to take the cross. I don’t know about you, but to me that doesn’t sound very comfortable. That sounds like the exact opposite to me. Jesus chose in the garden that night to say, ‘Perhaps God will work on my behalf. Let the Father’s will be done’. Jesus knew that God would show up and use His obedience. Why should we choose anything different?
These thoughts are what carry me through most days. Though my comfort zone is often far way and transitions are hard. God is near, He is faithful, and He is on my side. When I choose God over my comfort zone and walk in obedience, there is room for Him to move, to carry it. It may seem as I am failing, but God can still move. I may not have all the words, but God does and is able to use mine. Perhaps, God will work on our behalf as we step out in faith.